It's been hours since I've seen you, and even though it's been years since I know you, I feel like I've been You forever. Can I not understand myself? Can I really disconnect from a part of me? ...of course. Please, please have me back!... I don't want to hurt anybody, especially not you, but... God, I tend to do that every single time I try to speak to you... How can I do more? How can I try? How can I manage to protect everything in between with the protective love that I've locked upon our link, a feeling so pure, so innocent and yet I trip and fall into obvious mistakes.

And I double them.

Will you?
Will you please take me under your wing again? Will you hold my hands wrapped in yours again and with your lips pour friendship onto my forehead? It's everything for me and I've never missed you more. Can you forgive me? Can I hover over your perfect shadow, can I be your little light when other shadows pass by?

I don't want to destroy you, I don't want to slay your aura with my filthy hands, driven by...

I am really, really sorry you had to take in all the hate I hold for myself.
I miss something that apparently I never was.
Just... - Please!